It’s hard / May

It’s hard. May 2023

Q: So red is a day when you drank alcohol and black is when you didn’t?

A: Yep, that’s right.

Q: Do you make a new painting every month?

A: No, it’s the same canvas. At the end of each month I add the blocks according to how that month transpired.

Q: Do you plan your alcohol consumption in order to make an interesting pattern?

A: I tried but I failed.

Q: The blocks aren’t perfect, why is that?

A: Every day is different, so is every block. 

Q: Have you cheated?

A: I was tempted to but I haven't

Q: Have you thought of quitting?

A: Yes, but only during the first 2 months. 

Q: How is it going?

A: Very well, I am very pleased with the progress: January: 42%, February: 39%, March: 35%, April: 20%, May: 19%. I find it easier and easier to say no, and it is less and less on my mind. My guess is that June will be down further, despite the beer-benevolent weather.

Q: Where do you think you’ll end up?

A: I’ve noticed that the periods that I go without are getting longer and longer. Maybe this trend will continue and the dry periods will just get longer. I have thought about going 100% sober, and maybe I’ll get to that organically, rather than making an active decision to do so. I’m very curious to see what will happen.